Day 1: Not too bad...FF

Weight:  223 pounds.  Sounds better than 250, doesn't it?  Ok, take into consideration that I am at least 7 inches shorter than my BFF - so it does not sound so great any longer. 

The competitive spirit in me is awakened by this blog- you show me yours, and I will get out a bigger one and flash it in your face.
Normal diets:  Weight Watchers, Weigh less, mediteranian, fit for life, fabulous for life, fanatic about your weight for life etc.
Scary diets:  Eat as much rice as you want, but only rice; eat only as much as you want brown rice, eat only a cup of brown rice, eat only half a cup of brown rice every day, eat anything but rice.  Rub the beads behind your ears and drink only milk, (that one worked!).

I have always been chubby (ok, i prefer that cute term to describe rolls of fat) and was definitely below average looking.  I was even a fat bride, and soon after my first marriage I lost a significant amount of weight and kept it off till I stopped smoking and had an extremely colicy baby.  Those two elements combined put 60 pounds on my small frame within 3 months.  So I started to smoke again and did not lose a single pound.  Quit for health reasons - aha.... another 20 found me.  Started again to lose the weight.  Did not lose a pound.  Quit again for health reasons - put on another 30.  All in all i have quit smoking at least 5 times (currently in a quitting) - hopefully final and more than 100 pounds have found me. 


Why not exercise?


I cant diet any more.  I used to be able to, but now it is like pulling teeth.  When the word Diet comes up, i start to salivate just thinking about kitchen cabinets (yeah, the wooden part).  Too rebellious to think of that kind of deprivation.



 I have to find a way to lose weight unobtrusively, because if my mind find out that i am dieting, there will be at least 10 pounds coming my way.  So, my whole thing is to diet secretly.  So HUSH.... HERE WE GO.